Wiggle wiggle wiggle

All my little guy likes to do is WIGGLE! He just loves moving and kicking and startling me in the middle of the night because I am still not use to it! haha. He tends to think one of the best times to play is in the wee hours of the morning like 4 or 5 am. haha. But I love it. I can't get over how amazing it feels to have him moving around in there. I get anxious if he hasn't moved in awhile then get relieved when he finally does. Ha ha. Being a paranoid mother already! I can't wait until Billy can start feeling his kicks too! That will be pretty amazing.

I cannot wait until we can get our crib set up. When Billy gets back (did I mention he is out of town for a week!? What am I going to do with myself!?) we plan on taking down the Christmas tree in my, soon to be our, room and start getting organized and set up the crib. I know it may be a bit early, but we have it and I just want to see it all set up! We got a cool infant bouncer seat, ya know one that vibrates, from my dad for Christmas. And my mom just told me tonight that her friends roommate has a basically brand new swing that she is going to give to me! Super excited that We are already getting so much baby stuff. We still have a lot of stuff to get but every little bit counts and helps!

I can't wait till our next appointment so I can hear my little guys heartbeat. We don't get another sonogram until like February! Ugh. I don't like waiting to see him! Oh well, patience is a virtue I suppose.

Time to start my attempts at sleeping before I have to get up a thousand times to pee!

Night!

And the verdict is....

It's a BOY!!!!! We are having a little boy. William Brian Barber. William after Billy obviously and Brian after my dad. I am excited. But I won't lie. For a split second I was disappointed I wasn't having a girl. But I got over that pretty fast. I am super excited. So is Billy! He can't wait to have a little boy to teach all of his boyish ways to and to take to Boy Scouts and everything. It is adorable!

The day we found out we went to Hobby Lobby and bought the CUTEST picture frame. It is blue and says Love at first sight. You put a sonogram picture in it. ADORABLE!

I will say I am a bit scared though. I don't know anything about little boys. Once he gets out of the baby and toddler stage, I am clueless on how to raise a boy! I know how girls thinks...not a clue on how boys think! It is a bit scary! OH and he just kicked!!!

Did I forget to mention that? I can FINALLLLLLY start feeling my little guy move around in there! And I gotta say he is a mover. It still feels like flutters or spasms but is most definitely him. Ha ha I think he knows I am thinking about him because he is kicking a lot, or it could be that cookie I ate a little bit ago finally getting to him. Sugar seems to send him into kicking over drive ha ha. Billy is jealous that he can't feel him yet. I tell him he will in time though. I can't believe I am already Five months! I am halfway there. I just want to meet my little guy!

Black Friday and Sonograms.

Can you believe it is already December? AND that I am already 18 weeks along! It is crazy! I can now say that I truly look pregnant now. I walked into work the other day and one of my coworkers exclaimed "Wow, you are huge!" Not the most flattering thing to be told, but I took it as I finally look pregnant and not just fat!

My Grandparents came for thanksgiving. I was afraid at how they would react to seeing my pregnant, but everything went wonderfully and they were very accepting and loving. They bought me lots of maternity clothes. We also went shopping on black Friday and we got out crib and changing table!!! Billy, My grandma and I went to babies r us at 4:15 in the morning. We got a Graco Lauren lifetime crib in Espresso with matching changing table. The crib is originally 179.99 and the changing table is 99.99. We got them both together for 149.99!!! Pretty awesome! Then we got a serta mattress for the crib that was normally 189, we got it for 89. Actually we were standing in line to buy it when my grandma says I am buying that! It will be an early shower gift! Thanks grandma! We also got a bunch of diapers and wipes that were pretty cheap. Deff not near enough but it is a start .haha. Overall we got some pretty good stuff on Black Friday. Can't wait for the crib to get here and can't wait till we can finally justify setting it up since right now would be a bit early. haha.

Well, we go back to the doctor on December 9 for another sonogram and I do believe they are going to be trying to see if it is a boy or a girl! Normally my doctor does this sonogram at 20 weeks, but because of all my hospitalization I am now considered a high risk pregnancy so I have an appointment already scheduled for earlier. I'll be almost 19 weeks, so close enough! I can't believe I am so close to five months. Almost halfway there! I can't wait to find out if it is a boy or a girl! We already have names picked out and everything!

Stay tuned! I'll probably post after the appointment! I won't be able to contain my excitment!

Hospitals and Stress

So it has been a pretty rough several weeks. Had to go to the hospital THREE times now. First time I was in the ER, and the other two I had to stay over night. First time I was having severe abdominal and back pain and was throwing up. They said I might have kidney stones. Sent me home with pain meds and anti nausea medicine. About a week later I got pretty dehydrated from throwing up and not being able to keep anything down and then the pain came back. Went to my doctor, they sent me to the hospital for a one night stay. Got pumped full of liquids, antibiotics, and pain meds, and slept a lot. They sent me home. A week later I was having the same problems but worse. Couldn't keep any food OR liquids down causing me to get even more dehydrated and apparantley still had some kidney stones. This time stayed in the hospital for two nights. It sucked.
I was so worried about the baby. But we heard the babies heartbeat five different times and they said everything was fine with the baby, I was just the one suffering. Had lots of pain meds and more fluids and more antibiotics. I am feeling better though. And I hoping this is all behind me. What happened to the second trimester being the easiest? so far it has been nothing but awful for me! Apparantley this baby wants to give me hell before it comes out. haha.

Well, besides all the hospital drama, I have been worrying so much about how much time I want to (or can) take off after the baby is born. I WANT to take two months off work. But realistically I don't think that is possible. Billy and I still have sit down and figure out our monies but I don't know if that will be possible. Also I am worrying about my insurance and insurance for the baby. I signed up for insurance at work, but I am afraid if i take to much time off that ill be dropped from the insurance. Long story short, if I don't have enough hours at work my insurance can drop me. Sucks a lot. I still have to figure out the details. I just want everything to be good for this baby.

Silly grown up stuffs and being an adult and a mommy.

any ways, I have to be at work in like nine minutes so I should probably get off here. Have a good day!

Sounds, feelings, and thoughts.

So last time I blogged (I know I am awful at keeping this up as a daily thing, but I will always update eventually) I was going to the doctor that week. Well, we have had TWO more doctors appointments since then! When we went to the first of the two, we got to see the baby again. SO much bigger! While we were looking at the baby, it did a complete turn and flipped sides. It was pretty cool. Didn't look to much like a baby, more like a teddy bear alien type thing. haha. I mean that with all the love in the world my future baby! Then we got to hear the heartbeat! It took a lot of work from the doctor. Apparently the baby wanted to be extra difficult and position itself really far back. But with some patience and effort from the doctor, we heard the heart beat! It was breath taking! I just looked up at Billy and couldn't stop smiling! I can't even describe the feelings that washed through me. All I can say is that it was pretty amazing!

We went back to the doctor two weeks after that (yesterday) for some testing. Basically they look at the folds on the back of the baby's neck and do blood work and tell me the odds of my baby having Downs Syndrome. But just from the sonogram part there is really no chance of the baby having Downs. The baby is so much bigger, again! And in the begging of the sonogram was so active! As part of the test, they need to get the baby to do this little jumping motion. So I had to cough and she would push on my belly to get the baby moving. It was so cool how much baby was moving around! Baby even started to wave! We could see its little arm just moving back and forth saying hi! Then half way through the baby grew tired of entertaining us and decided it was time to stop. Luckily they got a good view of things before hand and everything looked great! I go back in a month just for a check up and then in two months, we are hoping to see what the sex is!

My mom's boyfriends' daughter has a three year old son so they decided to give me their old infant carrier. Super exciting. Very first baby thing!! I can't wait to find out what the baby is so I can start buying clothes and what not!

When people say creating a human being is hard work, they are not joking. Holy crap! I am always so exhausted! I have never been so exhausted from just waking up in the morning and making breakfast before! Hopefully since I am starting my second trimester things will get a little easier. They say your second trimester things get better so we shall see!

Extreme Exhaustion

So the second doctor's appointment went well. Got to see the baby again. It was WAY bigger then the first time yet still SO tiny! it is crazy. I go back to the doctor this Wednesday. We are suppose to hear the heartbeat this time. I am so super excited.

Lately I have just been so incredibly exhausted! It is crazy how much pregnancy takes out of me. I had been feeling soooo sick and throwing up all the time. I don't want to jinx it, but it seems the throwing up has subsided for now, but I still have the nausea. I am a little over ten weeks. Two more weeks and I'll be out of the first trimester. I have heard that the morning sickness ends around the beginning of the second trimester.

Billy and I went to Barnes and Noble the other day and I got myself a pregnancy Journal. I have just started filling it out and so far it is pretty fun! I got "The Belly Book" I am just to excited for the pregnancy and this baby to be brought into my life. Even though I have so much awfulness at the moment (sickness, back aches, sore boobs, sore back, exhaustion) I know it will so be worth it when I can finally hold my baby. I can't wait to find out what I am having. We already have names picked out and I just want to know what name we will be using and what colors I can start putting together!

I feel so blessed to have the support of my parents and Billy's mother and sister. They are seriously the best and I am so excited that they are my family now too!

Welp, I am exhausted and pizza is on the way!

Drama Drama Drama

Oh boy, so a lot has went down since the last time I updated. Lets see if I can actually remember everything. haha
We told Billy's Dad. It went AWFUL! He didn't scream. He didn't yell. He wasn't happy. He did...nothing. We had Billy's older sister stay with us while we told, for support. Everyone was talking having a good time then Billy said "well there is something I need to tell you dad. Kaitlin is pregnant." His dad looked at me and said "is she really?" I confirmed. Billy's father than said "Wow, this could have waited till after my birthday. Better find an apartment" Billy asked if he wanted to see the sonogram which his father answered with a very stern NO. It was then silent for a few seconds and he then picked back up his conversation with Jessica and Thom like nothing ever happened. He has yet to even say anything to billy and that was almost two weeks ago. They haven't talked about it. He is acting like nothing happened other than the fact that he completely ignores me now when I see him. It sucks. Billy hasn't even told his dad that he is moving out and moving in with me in the next few weeks. ugh.

New topic, because the previous makes me so frustrated- Billy and I have decided to stay at my moms for a little bit after the baby is born. My mom has graciously offered to let us stay here for only $300 a month plus groceries. We are so grateful. It'll give us a chance to save up a lot of money so we can move out on our own. Plus we will have support when we need it cause as my mom said "You have no idea what you are in for" haha.

Lets see, lets see, what else. Oh I told Portia, my best friend. She was shocked, but happy for me. We also told our boss. Again, incredibly shocked. We wanted to wait until I was further along to tell everyone at work, but surprise surprise, Billy's step mom told Hillary, Billy's ex-girlfriend (aka the one that got away according to Billy's father) and she has told several people at work. So now it is slowly but surely getting around. Oh well. I was super frustrated and angry about it at first, but now, I am just letting whatever happens happen. What's done is done and I can't do anything to change that.

On a happier note, I am falling more and more in love with my baby and my babies father. It is crazy. I can't wait to go back to the doctor tomorrow to see how big my little bean has gotten! I can't wait until I can start to feel it move, and find out the gender. I want to go baby shopping so bad! haha.
any ways, that is all for now. I shall update sometime tomorrow or the next day after my doctor's appointment!

Edit: I completely forgot to tell you how is mother took it! She was shocked (like everyone else) but is so excited! She is so happy that she is going to have a grandchild! She is being super supportive and is so happy for us. I am so happy that she is my child's grandmother and that she will one day be my mother in law! yay!

Another Big Day

So after a nice long day at work, Billy and I went over to my dad's for dinner (although due to this lovely "all day sickness" I wasn't able to eat anything). We pulled my dad out onto the patio and broke the news to him. I do believe my exact words were "Well, I don't know how to say this but, uhm... You are going to be a grandpa!" Then came the silence, awkward nervous laughing then he managed to stumbled out the words "congratulations...?!" Then a lot of stumbled words, but I do believe there was a mixture of shock, excitement, nervousness for us, and happiness for us. I am honestly surprise at his reaction. I was expecting the worst, but am very happy that it went well.

We then went inside and told my little brother, and his response was to give us both high-fives, then make some inappropriate sex jokes. Haha.My older brother reacted with shock, but congratulated us and seemed happy for us.

Then we headed over to ihop to meet up with Billy's sister. We told her and showed her the sonograms and she was excited. I am super happy to have her support and excitement. I know she will be super supportive throughout everything.

Now tomorrow we are telling his mom after church and telling his dad after we go out to dinner. So we shall see how that goes. I am nervous but super excited for his mom to know.

My mind is still running wild with everything. It is all just becoming so real ya know? I can't wait to have another sonogram to see the little one growing inside of me.

Stay tuned for updates tomorrow on how his parents took it!

Doctor's visit

Well, the doctors visit went very well. I am not as far along as I originally thought I was. They estimated about 4 1/2 to 5 weeks, but they want me to come back in 2 weeks to get a better look. Right now the baby is 3.3 mm long. The doc said itll grow about 1 mm every day! Isn't that crazy? Billy and I got to see the little heart beat. It was breath taking and crazy and wonderful and scary and amazing all at the same time. Billy and I couldn't stop staring at each other and smiling. It was a great feeling. I can't wait to go back in two weeks to get a better look at the little one inside of me!

We went ahead and told my mom today. That was scary, but it went very well. She was shocked and didn't believe me. Then exclaimed "That's why you didn't drink!" referring to the fact I wouldn't drink any alcohol while we were at my family reunion. She is very supportive. She isn't mad which I am so grateful for. She is definitely nervous for us but at the same time I think she is excited and happy for us. We will be telling the rest of our parents this weekend/the beginning of next week. I am so scared as to what my father is going to say. I have a feeling he is going to hate me or be very angry with me. We shall see how it goes!

getting nervous

So, tomorrow is my first doctors appointment. I am nervous. I am so afraid that for some reason those tests were wrong. I have already fallen in love with this baby inside of me and if for some reason it was all not real, I don't know what I would do. I know I am being crazy. I took three pregnancy tests that where positive. Of course it is true!

I really hope I am far enough a long that they will do a sonogram. I wanna see my little baby! I think we are planning on telling my mom tomorrow night. Then we will tell the other parents some time this weekend. I am so scared. I have no idea what they will say.

It may be a bit early, idk, but i do believe I am beginning to show. All of my pants are way to tight. I can barley wear my work shirts. Someone at work asked billy if i was pregnant today ( he played it off like I wasn't but didnt actually give her an answer) but obviously people are starting to realize. It is crazy.
It confuses me though. I work with a girl who is at least two months ahead of me and she still looks stick thin. IDK. The human body is a very interesting thing.
Ill updated again tomorrow sometime after my appointment. Can't wait!!!

Day Two...

Alright, so day two of knowing I am pregnant and my mind is going wild. I may have went ahead and taken two more tests (one more yesterday, and one more this morning) just to make sure I wasn't dreaming. I ended up telling my friend Jessica (whos little girl turned one today) and she was very supportive and happy for me. I know ill be able to ask her questions or talk to her about things if I need to because she has been through this and I know she wont tell any one right now. Billy also told a friend. He needed to tell someone haha.

I go to the doctor next Friday. I hate having to wait so long, but I am going out of town tomorrow and that was the only day Billy was able to go with. I am super excited. I hope they'll be able to do a sonogram and tell me how far along I am. We plan on telling our parents sometime after that. I want to tell them next weekend, but Billy wants to wait another week after that, so we shall see.

I know I'm not like really showing yet, but my pants and work shirts are already starting to feel tighter. Wearing my work pants puts me in a lot of discomfort. I just can't wait till I can tell people at work so I can start wearing maternity shirts and be somewhat comfortable.

Alright that is all for now. Being pregnant is exhausting and I need to rest. Good night!

Positive Test

So even though this blog will probably be secret for awhile, I needed somewhere to put my thoughts.

I took a pregnancy test this morning. Those two lines showed up. And rather than feeling upset,or not wanting this or feeling super scared, I am surprisingly calm and excited. I know it is a bit taboo in our day and time for a 20 year old college student to be excited about a pregnancy, but I am. Don't get me wrong, I am bit scared and nervous of the unknown, but I know Billy and I will be OK.
The test wasn't too much of a shock. I have been feeling nauseous, moody, horrible heartburn, and obviously no period.
It is hard not being able to tell anyone yet. We don't want to tell anyone at work until I start showing because the rumor mill is constantly turning there. I have so many questions. What do I do now? What medications am I allowed to take? What foods should I avoid? Can I fly in an airplane? When will I start showing? How long until this nausea goes away? I have so many more questions and I just can't wait till I can start asking everyone else about there experiences.

More to come soon.