Yeah, I haven't updated as frequently as I planned, but lets just face it. I am exhausted and miserable and don't want to do anything else besides sleep and eat. It is sad really. As much as I love this child and am terrified of bringing him into this world, I am so tired of being pregnant. All the extra weight is putting so much strain on my back and my knees and my hips. I can barley move without being in excruciating pain! no one ever tells you that being pregnant can mean literally being in constant pain and discomfort 24/7. I can even sleep really any more. I get up every hour, sometimes twice every hour to pee. Or because I am not comfortable. Or because I am having the WORST acid reflux in the world. Yeah. I have already kissed sleep goodbye and this child isn't even born yet!!! Not to mention this mixture of all of this and my hormones going crazy has left me an emotional wreck. Ha ha this part is funny looking back, but not at all when it is happening. I don't know how many times I have been sitting with billy and have looked at him began crying and stated "I am crying and have no idea why!" Or I will be in a horrible angry mood and ill state "I am pissed off and have no legit reason to be!" which in the end frustrates me even more.
Is all this stuff normal? I sure hope so. I just feel like a complete crazy half the time.
OK. Done with the negative. Here is some POSITIVE going on- William's kicks are getting so much stronger! My mom and my dad have both felt him and Billy can feel him A LOT now! I can even see him moving. It is crazy. I sat a remote on my stomach the other day and just watched in aw as he sat there kicking it and making it move and jiggle and stuff. It is insane so see him move under my skin like that! But I feel so connected with him every time I can feel him moving and kicking and wiggling around. I also LOVE every time Billy can feel him. He gets the HUGE smile on his face and keeps telling him to move more. I love when he sits and talks to me belly and tells our baby how much he loves him. It is crazy how much closer this has made us, but I feel so much closer and so much more connected to Billy. He is so sweet to me. I am currently trying to get over a horrible cold/sinus thing (yet another negative about pregnancy: you can't take any good medicines when you are sick) and he is so sweet wanting to take care of me and make sure I am OK. I love him for how supportive he is and I love him even more for being able to deal with all my crazy hormonal episodes. He really is an amazing guy and I am so happy he is mine and is the father of my child!
OH! and we started our prepared child birth classes on Sunday. We went this Sunday, go next Sunday and one more time the Sunday after that for three and a half hours. It wasn't bad. It honestly didn't feel that long. It was exciting to be able to learn things about our baby, my body, and about the birthing process. The last class we get to go on a tour of the labor and delivery part. I have seen part of it but it'll be nice to see it as not a patient ha ha. It is kind of overwhelming how much information there is to learn. But so far from the videos we watched, it has only made me more confident in my decision to get an epidural. No way do I want to feel all the pain. God made medicine for a reason right? ha ha
We go to the doctor this Friday. I get to take my glucose test (oh joy...) and we get to have a sonogram!! yayy. that is the only good thing about this appointment. I am not looking forward to the nasty drink or my blood being drawn. I shall update sometime after that with how that appointment went!
